Friday, December 25, 2009

Tagged by Michael Boon

1_ 大名: Michelle Tan Yin Ting
2_ 生日: January 24
3_ 谁传给你的: Michael Boon
4_ 生日想拿到什么礼物: Camera HQ
5_ 最近压力大的事: School is starting. T^T
6_ 想做的事: Watch movie, and learn and bake food
7_ 有没有喜欢的人: Yes
8_ 跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: Yee-Pei, Rachel Khaw, Marissa Law
9_ 如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: Tell them it's alright. Everything will be okay.
10_ 最想和别人去那里: The beach or a hill top.
11_ 圣诞节想做什么: Be with family, especially my cousins <3
12_ 最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: Same question? Family...best if with friends too.
13_ 最近在做什么: Paint nails, watch movies in cinema, chat..
14_ 有几个兄弟姐妹: Younger brother
15_ 最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: DBSK..currently, Survivor
16_ 喜欢什么颜色: Pink
17_ 上厕所会不会冲水: Duh
18_ 喜欢男还是女生:男生
19_ 最想大大声说什么: Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
20_ 半夜敢不敢上厕所: Yes, desperate ma..
21_ 你现在最恨谁: uh hm...
22_ 现在喜欢做什么: Being with my cousins and relatives
23_ 睡相好不好看: I don't know
24_ 现在的时间: 1134
25_ 是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: No! x)
26_ 体重多少: 46-47 kg
27_ 今天天气: Sunny!
28_ 如果忙完了你最想做什么: Read manga
29_ 失眠后会怎样: Scribble randomly on a piece of paper at the table
30_ 你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: No
31_ 你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: A bit
32_ 你有没有吃过夜宵: A lot
33_ 近期开心的事: Sleepover at cousin's
34_ 自由对你来说重要吗: Yesh
35_ 你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: Shermaine
36_ 你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: more to 聪明. mwaha. xD
37_ 你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: Both
38_ 你现在最想看到谁: Michael Boon and Shanny!
39_ 你爱看戏吗: Yes
40_ 你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你吗?: 敢

++附加问题++
41_ 你打算几时结婚啊: 25-27 years old
42_ 你喜欢你的生活吗: Okay
43_ 相信塔罗牌吗: Never experience, never know
44_ 睡觉前所做的事情: Brush teeth, wash legs, wash face, pray
45_ 你的偶像: DBSK
46_ 你喜欢的季节: Autumn and Winter
47_ 最想去的地方: South Korea, Japan, Australia
48_ 最讨厌怎样的性格的人: Someone who fakes
49_ 你会抽烟吗: Never!
50_ 你会喝酒吗: Wine
51_ 你常哭吗: No
52_ 你常笑吗: Yesh
53_ 想睡到几点: 8 am
54_ 朋友和情人你会选谁: Friends
55_ 机会+命运你会选谁: 机会
56_ 你很自恋吗: Not really
57_ 你有穿耳洞吗: Yes
58_ 这问卷多不多: Not really
59_ 喜欢吃冰吗: Yes
60_ 现在幸福吗: Yup
61_ 最在乎谁: Everyone
62_ 房间里最重要的东西是什么: Lappy, luggage, phone
63_ 没有朋友你会怎么做: Find friends!
64_ 如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: No more school
65_ 这个问题废吗: Tres
67_ 喜欢那个水果: A lot leh.. plum, mango, mangosteen, strawberry,...endless
68_ 最怕人家问你什么: How? Next year, SPM?
69_ 喜欢下雪吗: Yesh
70_ 下辈子要做什么: Not sure yet
71_ 希望再被tag吗: Okay okay
72_ 没事做你喜欢等人吗: Depends
73_ 你吃饱了没有?:Yes
74_ 看到問卷你的反應是?: Okay la

-点到必填,不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
-请老实回答每一问题
-不能擅自涂改题目
-写完请点10 位小朋友,不可以不点
-完后请通知那10 位小朋友被点到的小朋友我最爱的你们~看你们幸运被我点到


1. Shewin Khaw
2. Rachel Ng
3. Charissa Tan
4. Rachel Khaw
5. Yee Pei
6. Daren Lim
7. Wen Shen
8. Sin Loon
9. Crztal Shia
10. You! (You know who you are..) ~.^

Monday, December 7, 2009

Promise (13)

Chapter 12 : Confusion


2nd January 2009, Sunday.
Dear diary,

A new year, with new resolutions - like writing a diary - and new...experiences. I have been thinking and worrying less now. "Enjoy and feel the flow.." Cindy says. Every morning I hang my necklace around my neck before heading to school. Homeworks like essays and projects are enough to keep me busy. I talk to more people now. This guy, Eyrique from Biology, asks me a lot about Emma. I wonder if they will be together. Emma says she doesn't have a 'thing' towards him. But, who knows? I grin a sly grin. Furthermore, Cindy and Cole have been hanging out really frequently - which ends up sometimes leaving Emma and I alone. Or sometimes, leaving me, alone as Emma has been going away almost every weekend for class activities and stuff.

Max? New year means new enrollment. But, Max and I are still in the same classes. However, things are not so bad now when I look at it. Guess I exaggerated a lot earlier. When Cindy and Emma are busy, he will call to see if we can have a pizza and watch movie. Just like what friends do when they hang out. So, I am determine to block every negativity which stands in my way. No more bad thinking. No more sadness. No more - tears... Hmm.. I have to remember to read this page everyday so I won't get confused about how I feel.
It's just a matter of time before I see him - Cedric - again.
Yeah, I haven't forgotten about him. Breathe.

Sydney.

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"So you free later?" Max asks me on a Monday afternoon in mid January as the last bell rings.
"Er, I have to finish an assignment." I look at him as I reply. His lips form an upside-down curve. I laugh. "Alright then. Hmm. How about, tomorrow? We'll grab something, like..ice-cream."
"Hah! Now you're talking. Okay. See ya tomorrow!" He gives me a pat on my shoulder and strides off like he always does.
"See you tomorrow..." Cindy imitates him as she walks to me.
"What?" I ask nonchalantly but continue, "Any updates?"
"Cole and I are going indoor rock-climbing this Saturday. Wanna join?"
"You know you don't want me there."
"Aww, come on. I'm not that bad. I'm thinking of sacrificing romance once for my dear Sydney and Emma. But I asked her. She can't make it. So, you?"
"Nah. Rock-climbing...Not my favourite."
"Hmm. You sure?" She asks again.
"Yes, I'm pretty sure, Cindy. Now, you may go because I think it's Cole there waiting for you." I point towards the guy in black at the other end of the corridor. She waves at him.
"Oh, okay. Love you. Bye!" Cindy says to me.
"Bye."

I sit at my table as I scribble a list of things to do this week - the last week before February comes knocking on my door, maybe even window. Almost nothing besides homework. I sigh. Can anybody's life be more boring? Then my phone rings.
"Hello."
"Hey, Max. Wassup?"
"Hmm, can I ask you out for dinner tonight?"
I think for three seconds. "Yeah, sure."
"I'll pick you up at six."
"Alright."
I look at the time. Four. What shall I do now? Just then a new email pops out from the bottom of the screen of my dad's laptop. It is his but I use it more than he does. Convenient laptop... Technology nowadays..

I click the email open. A sudden flash of shock is sent across the screen to my body, sending an electric wave into my spine, as I read the words in front of my widely-opened eyes, framed with serious eye bags, muttering them under my small, helpless breath.

To: Sydney
From: Cedric

Hey, Syd.

It has been four months. I am sorry I didn't reply any of your mails earlier. Things were tough when I just got here and I needed time. I'm in New Zealand. Will contact you again, soon. Bye.
Love, Cedric.

I'm not scared, seeing the words - 'four months'. I'm not touched either, seeing the words - 'I am sorry'. Neither am I understanding, reading 'I needed time'. I am just - fuming, with rage. No longer explanations after those months of sudden disappearing? No other information, apart from his stupid location? 'Will contact you again, soon'. Who am I? I feel like cursing him, but I can't. So I just close the message and shut down the laptop. End of story. Well, not so. I reach for my phone again. It shows fifteen minutes past four. I look for the number at the 'received calls' and hit the call button.
"Hey, Max. I'm not feeling really well. It's a sudden thing.. Sorry, I can't go out tonight. I'm really, truely sorry. Maybe we'll hang out some other day." My heart is hurting, not only for Cedric, but also for Max. He has been so nice and sweet towards me. I don't deserve a friend like him. I feel awful, rejecting his offer just because of one stupid email from a....person.
"You're not well? I can make a visit for a lil' while--"
"No, it's alright. I just need some sleep, that's all. I call you again then. Bye, Max." And I end the line. I am so confused.

Confused. Confused.

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26th January 2009, Wednesday.
Dear diary,

Aren't I handling things well recently? Why does my heart seem to fail me, my plans, and my life? Why? Just when I start to see flowers and butterflies and blue skies again. And melting snow and yellow umbrellas and rocky sand. Argh, I'm crapping. I need a nap.

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